Have you ever felt lonely?
This was a question posed at the end of Banshee’s nightly Bible story a couple of weeks ago.
We just finished reading about Hannah, her desire to have a baby, and feeling like God didn’t hear her when she cried out. (1 Samuel 1)
But, God did hear her and blessed her with a son, Samuel.
Sometimes, especially in a larger family, it’s easy to feel those emotions, unheard and lonely.
So, when I read the question ‘do you ever feel lonely?’ out loud, she responded in a sweet voice, “sometimes I feel lonely.”
I asked, “when do you feel lonely?”
“When I feel really angry or sad.” she replied in a defeated tone. (we struggle with the expression of these emotions).
She then began to squeeze her teddy bear and close down.
I hugged her close.
“Sweetie, why do you feel lonely when you’re angry and sad?”
“I don’t know.”
I sat for a couple of minutes with my mind racing on how to help her put words to it.
“Do you feel lonely when you’re angry or sad because they feel so big and no one else can be there with you?”
In a small voice, “yeah…”
Then she began crying.
I hugged her closer.
“Sweetie, I know those emotions can feel so big, but God is bigger than those feelings, and He is always with you.”
She’s still whimpering next to me.
She continued.
“When I’m angry and sad it feels like when you’re in a store and get lost.”
She begins sobbing.
“That must feel really scary.” I said.
More sobbing.
I felt so helpless.
She’s only 5 and a half and feeling such big things.
I sat there with her as she cried, offering comfort, and feeling like I can’t reach her all in the same moment.
We have a road ahead of us navigating these emotions, but I’m also hopeful that God will use her sweet and deep heart for His glory.
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